So, Haven't been to Westfall since Last Thursday, trying to give Laura her space. . . .But it really sucks, cuz I wanna be with all of them. And Rob isn't answering any of my texts. . . which is weird. I wonder if Laura's been talking about me to him. Because I know that She's been talking about me to everyone else, Kaitlin (her roommate) told me. . . And Liz and Jess and Crystal have told me. Whatever I guess.

Today I got out of two doubled parking tickets. it was nuts. I should've paid $160.00 but I paid NOTHING. I love it.
I failed my first test. 42%. . . Pretty legit. haha.
I just saw Paranormal Activity with Eric Brayden, and it scared the crap outta me! It shouldn't have but it did. Yikes.

I'm moving tomorrow down the hall. Fuck I move a lot. But I'm gonna be Julianna's roommate, so it'll be way fun. She's super cool, and we get along really well. We both like to sleep without pants on, so that's a plus that I won't have to give that up. haha.

I cannot wait until Thanksgiving. I miss everyone at home a ton.

That's all I guess.

 Sooooo. There are these guys who live on Laura's floor, they're roommates and they're named Rick and Rob (sounds like a sitcom, I know). Anywho, I tried to deny it for a few weeks, but then I finally admitted to myself that I have a crush on Rob. He's so nice! I've slept over in his room like. . . four times? we never do anything but cuddle, and that's fine with me. He's so nice! 

I pulled an all-nighter with Juliana last night even though I had nothing to get done. then I slept at five this morning. I hope she's okay! 

Can't wait for Thanksgiving. It's the best holiday EVAR.

Guess I didn't really have that much to say.

 HOLY cow. I have not posted anything in 9 weeks. 

Here's the update for college so far:
+moved away from  my awful, racist, homophobic, nasty roommate. 
+Made out with Joe, and was traumatized by this exchange of words:
     Joe: "Emily, are you a virgin?"
     Me: "Yes, I am"
     Joe, "Oh okay, I guess that's understandable. . . That's like asking someone who's never ridden a roller coaster to ride the Tower of Doom."
     Me: ". . . Are YOU the Tower of Doom, Joe?"
     Joe: "Yeah, yeah I guess I am"
     Me: "You are lucky I didn't just get up and leave right now."
+Turned eighteen.
+Walked to and from Old Town with the most PRECIOUS boy on the planet. 
+Failing math. Accepting this fact.
+Spooned with Rob. Twice. 
+Went to football games.
+Hung out with Allie.
+Hung out with Amy.
+Somehow screwed myself over, and acquired the title "7th floor essay editor" in Westfall.
+Dealt with Laura being pissed at me at LEAST once a week.
+Pulled an all-nighter.
+Skipped tons of class (still getting B's and C's in everything but math, and that's online.)
+Deleted Alex out of my phone.
+Relapsed and talked to Alex.
+Remembered what a conceited jerk he is.
+Cried. Not because of Alex. 
+Fell off of my bike 4 times. HILARIOUS.
+Made 800,000 To Do Lists
+Stalked "Tanner on C3" via itunes. 
+Helped clean Rick's puke of the wall in the girl's bathroom when he drunkenly projectile vomited in there.
+Drank Jager-bombs
+Visited Emily in Gunnison, and drank from the coolest flask.
+Wasted my life away on facebook.
+Went to the Butterfly Pavilion.
+Applied for International Student Volunteers.
+Got Accepted to the program.
+Had to decline.
+Ate infinite amounts of food.
+LOVE it here.

 I move in a week and a day.
I am so freaking excited. 
It's beyond ridiculous. I cannot  WAIT.

 I got my wisdom teeth out. What a Suckfest! 
EXCEPT all of my friends are visiting me. which is fun. Like today Brooke and Emily came over, and we were gonna watch P.s. I love you. But then Alex came over and we watched Disturbia and halfway cuddled. I gave him his Mix CD, which he is MEGA stoked on. I'm glad. He wants to maybe come over tomorrow too! neat. 
My face is so fat though. it is Beyond embarrassing. Jeez. 

I'm tired I just realized. Jeeeeeez. k. 
Well I'ma go to bed now. 

Ten days til FOCO!

 Here's the deal.
I have three weeks until I move to Fort collins! OH GEEZ. I want my two weeks to be up at work. I fucking hate my job.
I actually did end up hanging out with Alex. And it was awesome. Which sucks. I wish it had sucked so I could be like this: Whattadouche. I don't care about moving away from him. But It was and I do. I'm making him a mix CD and it's really difficult. 

I went to the Death Cab concert with Ra Ra Riot and Andrew Bird. It. Was. Perfect. I loved it.

I have the flu right now. gross.

I don't  know what else to say really. . . 

Called Alex out on his bullshit.
We may or may not be hanging out still tomorrow. . . He's gonna call me.

Got my rook pierced.

Went to the doctor, I'll write more about it later, it's a lot to type and I just realized how tired I am.

I went to the Dore Taylor show last night. It was awesome, because Ted (Dore) Taylor works with me, that's how I know about him at all, and he's the Most ADORABLE human being alive. He's a bartender, and i just, I love him. It was a good show.

Boys are so Hot and cold! So, I texted Alex, and was like, "Wish! It's 11:11!" and he texted me back " So i just got done looking at all the prom pictures. . . I must say! You looked GREAT! I don't mean to sound Creepy."
Then I said thanks,and we talked about how he looked nice too, and then he was like, I still have the flower you pinned on my jacket. and how The corsage he fixed of mine was more from the heart than the original. . . blah blah blah. I asked him what he did that day, and he told me and then he was like "Wanna know something weird that I found out today though?" and I said, "Yes please" and he was like "Jake and Tyler both have girlfriends! I'm the only one without a girlfriend! How strange."
So I guess What I'm asking is. . . Am i totally ridiculous to think that those are Signs?


I went to Orientation. it was fun, Just exhausting, I hate being herded around like that. but i decided that I'm going to really try to be a nutrition major. I Am going to stay undeclared, and take a nutrition class, just to make sure but That seeeeeeeems like What I really want to do.
Here's my schedule for next semester:


MONDAY:
10:00-10:50
BSPM102 (BUGZZZZ)

2:00-2:50
Nutrition

4:00-5:15
Theatre



TUESDAY:
12:30-1:45
College Comp.

3:00-4:40
Legends of  FoCo
(seminar)


WEDNESDAY:
10:00-10:50
BSPM102 (BUGZZZZ)

2:00-2:50
Nutrition

4:00-5:15
Theatre



THURSDAY:
12:30-1:45
College Comp.



FRIDAY
10:00-10:50
BSPM102 (BUGZZZZ)

2:00-2:50
Nutrition


Yep.

My sister Valerie got engaged to her boyfriend Matt on Sunday night. I'm glad, I like him.
I got my glasses today. They're awesome, and I can see.
I'm on the verge of giving up on Alex, I have like two months left. Nothing's gonna happen.
I think I'm gonna watch Star Wars in Joe's basement, which is cool since i have a friend crush on him.
I hate my shitty job.
I need a break from my life.
That's it.

My friends are like 13 year old's sometimes. This whole "Fight" bullshit goin' on is really harshing my mellow and Fucking up my summer. I think it should stop.

I cut my bangs this morning. I think they look good. I like cutting my own hair--then I have no one to blame but myself, which minimizes obnoxious, insecure complaining.

Last night I accidentally caught Dexter's pants on fire while we were roasting marshmallows around Emily's fire pit. Just the fringe on his knee where that hole is. It didn't burn his skin, but it scared him. which is understandable. haha. It was way funny afterwards though.

Alex. I pocket called him AGAIN. This is getting ridiculous! I mean really, WTF phone!? it ONLY calls him too. He probably thinks I'm doing it on purpose by now. I SO am not though. Anyways, after that happened, we were texting a bunch about his guitar skillllzzz, and how he said he'll play me a song that he wrote, because since I didn't know him when he wrote it, I won't know what it's really about and so it won't be so embarrassing. It's PROBABLY about Molly. Oh well. He gets his license on Thursday, so maybe then he'll stop being such a douche about hanging out. you know, or maybe not. maybe I just need to drop it. . . you know, or not. Shit I dunno. I've got so much other shit on my mind lately, to be honest. Plus, When I like people a lot, my body gets all crazy and decides to give me basically permanent butterflies, and I feel sick all the time. It's sort of a suckfest.

Hanging out with Adrienne and Jenny on Wednesday was totally bomb. It's so nice to see her! Well,  them. Plus that Glow in the dark Star shirt is totally bitchin. as well as my " MATH! More powerful than (superman symbol)" shirt. THANKS ADRIENNE! I love it when we thrift and you find awesome things for me. : ) 

I have to do all of my stuff I have to do before orientation soon. I go up the 24th and 25th for orientation and registration. Class suggestions at all CSU folks? I'm pretty sure I'm gonna take Spanish, and Maybe the Bugs class for my science credit? I dunno yet though.

Next time I see my sister, I'll suggest to her what Mallory and Allie said. How weird that that never crossed our minds!  Matt didn't propose Yesterday, probably since we all found out. Val. . . she can't TELL everyone! dumb.

Alex is back from Nebraska now. I'm gonna wait for him to ask to hang out. I always suggest the plans yo! He'll probably be hanging out with Molly today since she gets her wisdom teeth out. : ( how sad for her. I Don't really know When I have to get mine out. . . It was supposed to be last summer, then winter break, then spring break. . . so probably soon? I don't wanna go to the dentist to find out. I fucking hate the dentist. More than anything.

I DO finally get to go to the optometrist, which is AWESOME. I always think, gee maybe my vision problems are all in my head, I mean, I DID really really REALLY want glasses the last time I took the test, BUT THEN I put on Dexter's glasses, and my mind is blown at the things I SHOULD be able to see! I think I'm going to get some Big awesome glasses. I'm stoked.

I also Have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Thursday. about my medication. which i'm still unsure about sometimes. That'll be something I'll have to deal with next year I guess. . .

It's really hard to address the following problem without sounding really conceited, but I'm going to try. Lately, everyone wants to hang out with me HARD. Like all the time. I should be really flattered, but really, I'm just overwhelmed. Even when I was really young, like three years old, If I was getting too overwhelmed by attention, I would just go to my room and slam the door, and sit in there, basically all day. I can't deal with people wanting me all the time you know? Plus it sort of pisses me off, because really, There were plenty of times this year, when NO ONE wanted to hang out ever! And I felt like such a lame-o. Then the last week of school, everyone realizes I'm leaving and loves me? It's like they only want what they know they can't have. especially people who I never really knew that well. . . They're all trying to create these totally epic friendships with me, that  a) we don't have time to develop and b) they probably only want it because it's a little unattainable. Also, Some of my good friends are becoming really really possessive. Like on my last day of school,  Shannen apparently got really mad when Alaina and Hannah were talking about how much they'll miss me next year, because "they don't know you like I do, and they have no idea how hard it is. They always talk about you like you're they're freaking best friend or something, but they hardly know you." I was really weirded out. I mean, when did my friendship become so glorified? Hannah, Alaina and Shannen all almost resent eachother when I hang out with one over the other two. I feel like I'm back in second grade when we all had to make a schedule for who could play with me at recess. Also, what a shitty time to finally blossom and come into my own. The last month of school, I finally started being who I wanted to be, and (again, not to sound superficial but) Dressing and looking the way I wanted to, and I feel like I was finally getting noticed. Things like that make me feel all conflicted and shit about graduating, espeically because I totally could've (should've?) been put into kindergarten a year later. I would be a junior right now. I think that's just my insecurities about moving away and college talking though. I think I'm so scared that I wish I wasn't leaving yet.

Angst.

I got my college roommate assignment the day before Yesterday. Her mane is Margaret Humphries, and she is a tiny little soccer girl. She likes country and abercrombie. I'll be able to deal, I guess I'm just a little disappointed that I didn't get a Roommate soul-mate like Marie. Oh well. I will live.

My Flute teacher is all sorts of pissed off at me because I quit lessons, but honestly? Why would I pay to go to lessons if I'm not even playing next year? seems like a waste.

Been hanging out lots with Emily and Dexter lately, They are both just such good and FUN friends! We always have a really good time. Shannen and I are going to Death Cab in July. It was supposed to be me and Alex, but his parents said something about visiting his grandparents that week. He was really really bummed. Shannen was BEYOND ecstatic when I asked her though, so it'll be fun.

Speaking of Alex, Yesterday I pocket dialed him. WHOOPS. and the scary part was that I probably was talking about him when I called. haha. He said he tried real hard not to drop his eves all over my conversation once he realized I pocket dialed him. Then we started talking about college and how I have this weird fear that I won't make friends, and he was like, "NO! My friends love you! they stalked you at prom!" . . . which was a weird thing to find out. It's whatever though. We're hanging out when he gets back from Nebraska.

Lastly, We just found out my sister's got this thing goin' on with her body which if the treatment they're about to try doesn't work, they'll have to force her to go through Menopause. So, she and Matt might try to have kids Nowish. . . which I think is a bad Idea. . . I dunno. He's proposing to her on sunday I think.

Graduation was good. I guess.

right after I finished graduating, I walked out of this tunnel to go back to my seat and my mom was waiting there with the video camera, and I looked at teh camera and said, "BIG DEAL!" and then, I walked up the steps as Emily Herbert was walking down,and we had the most epic high five.
Graduating makes me wish I had a middle name like Danger or something.

Then was my party.
Alex couldn't come. he was in fort collins with his parents. he felt REALLY bad.
Considering that that was when I was going to tell him I have a big fat crush on him, I feel like it might be the universe's way of telling me to. . . NOT.
Oh well.

Grad parties straight up wore me out.
I made myself sick.

I made bank at mine. I want to go shopping.

I'm tired.
 

My mind is blown. I love this video so much. I could watch it over and over and over.

Graduation is tomorrow. Woah.
My parents got mm's with a picture of my 3 yr old face on them. also she got ones that say "Congrats Em!" "Way to go Big E!" and "Your Great!!!" (Yes. . . she used the wrong your, it should be you're, but She feels dumb about it already, I'm not going to even pretend it bothers me. The thought was nice enough that I hardly care. hahah)

Seriously though. That video. Rocks my world. HARD.

My mind is blown that I am FINISHED with High school.
I cannot grasp this right now.

So yesterday I went to school, did generally nothing ALL day long, then went to the senior picnic.
I decided that at my graduation party I'm going to tell Alex I have a big fat crush on him.

Yesterday he sent me a text saying "Dear emily, You are SO awesome! and funny! Thanks so much for making this year so memorable. You are hands down the best senior in the school! so good job with redeeming your entire stupid ass class!" This doesn't SEEM like a big deal, HOWEVER, anyone who Knows Alex Baggett knows that he's a sarcastic ass 99.89999 percent of the time (which he basically NEVER is to me. . but Shannen says that's just a good sign). . .  Then told him about how, he was the only reason I came to school yesterday. Then we talked about his mom and how she broke her leg, his brother, how when he gets his license he's going to take me to clear creek, our favorite places and how prom was the best EVER. Good lord I am enamored with that boy.

I have two days left.
TWO.
Seems like too many.
Fuck I don't want to do my finals.

Alex signed my yearbook with a bunch of stupid sarcastic shit, and to get back at him, I signed THE NICEST yearbook signing ever. so deep and meaningful. and I know it worked because today he came up to me and was like, "That was the nicest thing I've ever read. . . makes me feel like an ASSHOLE!" haha. So cute.
He made callbacks for the musical at DSA today. so he missed the One-act he directed. bummerrrrr.

I should go to bed. I have finals tomorrow.

I saw Lizzie AND Adrienne last night at paris on the platte. I only wish I had been in a better mood, or at least that I could have faked it better. haha. I had been playing apples to apples upwards of 3 hours with Zeke, who was being a big douche.
I am ready to move out of my house. HARD.
Alex told me he likes my ears. what. how adorable.
Shannen being with gryffin makes me really glad. they're both cool, and I like it
I haven't talked to preston REALLY in like three weeks. I needed a break from him.
Now I need a break from Dexter. He's such an oppinionated asshole sometimes. DAMN.

My Graduation party is May 22nd from 5:30 til Whenever. at my house. if you want to come. I would love to see ANY of you there. : D

Prom was downright WONDERFUL.
So many adorable things happened with my date.
+Both of our parents were Camera happy. and he laughed through all of the pictures.
+His dad walked up to him while other couples were doing pictures, and Alex and I were talking, to show him the text Alex's older brother Jo Jo sent about prom. Then Alex showed me and it said, "Awwwwwwwww!" haha.
+He bought me a corsage, even if all of the flowers DID fall off by the time we got to the restaurant. (which he was really embarrassed about, but eventually we just kept making jokes about it.)
+We and a few other people in our group had a contest to see who could keep a spoon on our nose the longest. Also, there was another prom group on the other side of this window thing from us, and Alex and I named them all.
+ We staged a fight as we walked into the DCPA, regarding his suit, and how "GREAT! Now it looks like I have a GAY date!" Mostly because he had a pink bow tie and vest, and we talked all night about the comments his brother makes about his going to DSA next year.
+ We danced together for 90% of the songs, he danced once with Tiana and I danced with a bunch of my other friends, then we sat out a few songs when the whole room was on FIRE. 
+ Eventually, he went and found the broken corsage I set down by my stuff and brought it back with a carnation he picked out of the decorations weaved in. I wore it all night.
+ Instead of grinding the WHOLE night, we danced old school some too. and he spun and dipped me and it was awesome.
+ On the last song, (some U2 Song) he was like, "Ah, boo, U2!?" and I was like, "HEY! It's the last Dance of my highschool career, don't wreck it." and so he preceded to sing the song to me in my ear.
+The music for us to exit to was "Don't Stop Believin'" and Alex and I sang it together in a dramatic fashion.
+ When we left, we got the gifts, which were these cool little picture cubes. And as I was walking back, I saw my friend Joe. I was talking to Joe about hanging out, and I gave him my phone to put his number in, and then Alex walked up and was like, "I think we're leaving," and I was like, "oh okay, hold on one second" and Joe's like "Yeah, hit me up any time, I'm down to hang out whenever you want Emily." I said thank you and as we were walking away, Alex was like, "What was that all about?" Not rude-like, just a little jealous-like. it was so cute. 
+ Then we had a speedwalking race, and while he kicked my ass the whole way, he cheated and let me win.
+ Also, he's a really good hugger.
+ And He "escorted" me everywhere, and had us link arms. haha.
+ At afterprom, we layed on a gym mat for like twenty minutes just talking as I went through his wallet.
+ Alex had his parents come get him from after prom because he was SO TIRED. and when I hugged him goodbye, I was like, "Thank you so much for going with me!" and he was like, "Thank you for asking me!"

Now for other things about the night:
+Good music, I really liked it.
+Saw Shane. He was really nice to me.
+ Isaac was Royalty, also saw their group at our restaurant, and it was kind of awkward city.
+ Ben (this kid who accidentally touched my boob, and then went around and told a bunch of people at the cast party about it) had the same outfit as Alex.
+Once afterprom was over, and I won something (a make up kit, which I traded for a chipotle gift card, which I traded for an Itunes giftcard.) we left, I took laura moodie home, and then met everyone at Denny's.
+ After some hashbrowns and chatting with Branson and Tiana and Ben, and Phil and lauren and Emily and Jakey and Miranda, I went home and slept until 3 this afternoon. and now I'm here.



THE END : )
 

God, Alex, why do you have to be SO adorable!?
Prom is Saturday. hopefully the snow complies. . .
I'm gonna punch our Manager in Training. Jeanie. boo.
I kind of want to sit around and watch movies for a while. too much social stuff sometimes.
Buh. I'm SO CLOSE to being done with high school! THANK THE LORD.